Here is what happened...
I went from focusing on my breath with every ounce of concentration to
the next 'phase' where I was observing the antics of my mind such as the
thoughts it was handing me and the images it wanted me to see and I found
the whole thing quite funny. I chuckled and was amazed at the things that
go on in my own mind!
Then I had trouble off and on with these thoughts sticking to me and it was
once again as if it was me (the observing presence) having these thoughts
though I knew better. And I thought I cannot untangle myself from these
thoughts, I lose myself in them actually. And then I would quickly concentrate
on my breath. Then after focusing on my breath I returned to the observing of
these thoughts and images of the mind and I realized after a bit that I was just
there...observing but nothing got my attention I was able to seperate myself from
the mind and stay here for awhile, quite awhile and as I noticed this I was realized
everything my mind put out and flowed past my awareness it didn't matter, I just
couldn't be bothered by it. It faded into oblivion I guess these thoughts seemed so
much more distant from ME, just out of reach really. A second could have passed
or several minutes I just don't know because the sense of time was not there. Wierd.
And I was somewhere but nowhere at the same time and even noticing this didn't
cause me to lose my 'place' in this phase of being. Was it calm abiding? May be it
was... I was calm, very calm and I was just dwelling 'there' so it could be that I made
it to the second stage of the excercise! I look forward to hearing about other's
experience to see how we compare and if others felt the same in the calm abiding phase.
Have a great day! Liz
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