On a scale of 1-10 I rate my physical well being as an 7 because on a purely anatomical level I have some ailments that have restricted my life such as knee problems & I have had 6 root canals and I wear glasses and have some minor allergies. On the mind body level I have done well but not great in that I have become aware of how my mind & body are inseperable and how my mind-body is actually one unit of being. In this discovery I have learned to eliminate mindless chatter & worry by being very observant of my thought life. Also, I do not in any active and ongoing way harbor negative or destructive thoughts about myself or others. When they do pop in I recognize these destructive buggers and just let them go I never cling to them, mull them over or hold onto them because to me it would be like putting manure in my pockets and walking around all day. Pretty soon the 'disturbing thought/manure" would not only be evident to me by holding onto it in private soon the negativity would be evident to others near me and so why hold onto to such a destructive thing...no good can come of it so why waste my energy and result in others not wanting to be around me anymore so why cling to it and harbor these??? It's just not worth it. But I still can improve and this will probobly be a life long strategy.
On a spiritual level I rate myself an 8 because I have come along way in developing the witnessing mind from 3 years ago. I do not always reside in this place of being but I can go there on a moments notice to witness and observe and see where my mind is at in relation to where I need it to be in that moment. The best side effect of doing this is that I have drastically reduced my reactive responses to others and to my own thoughts so much so that very little rattles me. I have never really been one to assume the worst in another however when they (another person) is being sarcastic or disagreeable or angry I now have come to a place where I do not get sucked in to their drama. I calmly observe and then just think to myself 'they are not very evolved' and I let it go... Because I am no better or worse than they are I just have learned a different way. Now I do experience emotions but I let them move through me and when it's over it's over. I used to rehash the event and think 'if I had only said this or done that' well I've learned the re-run of old buisness seldom is productive so I stopped doing it unless some lesson can be pulled from that mess and used.
My phychological wellbeing I rate a 6 because I am still learning about this aspect and don't really know how to rate myself. However, I still think of the world as a 'me in here and others out there' so the unifying the whole, seeing us as one is something I still am working on and learning about and trying to understand but knowing that we are One down to the core of our "I" ness this is helping me gain a new perspective on this...I have more to learn on how to see us, we, them, me as the same, as one. I think our core "I" is all identical in all of us, but our thoughts and emotions and everything that cuases us to move AWAY from that universal central point of being is what causes us to think of ourselves as unique and seperate...I could be wrong and would love to hear what others think about it...
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